Tuesday, December 25, 2012

It makes me so sad. I just saw a post buy a guy who just got out of prison, a drug addict, and not worth a damn... I lost everything and I did nothing to deserve it. I just picked the wrong woman. His story is being shared all over facebook and no one cares that I cant see my son for Christmas... What is wrong with the world!?  Would you all care more if I was a drug addict???
I gave up everything for Kim. I really did. I was sixteen when I met her, just starting college and had a very good paying job. I fell in love with a girl that had nothing and no future because she was a drug addict. I dropped out of college and moved to a city far away from everything I knew to save her from the hole she was in. When she didnt stop using, I tried it to find out why it was so hard for her to give up and I ended up addicted for over a year. She left me because of my addiction and I joined the Navy to get clean and when I was clean and finally on top of life again I ran into Kim again... I left my wife for her... Kim got pregnant... She left me for another man and told me he was the father and I lost my mind and ran away to California and became a tattoo artist, moved back to Vegas when my father died and found out she had claimed me as the father of her child and I was in areers for child support. I started paying and fighting to get a paternity test. I lost and Nevada decided I was the father by default... I got married again... My wife left me because I started seeing my son, I secretly got the paternity test saying I was the father. After my second wife left me, me and Kim got back togather and I was a part of my son, Dallas's, life. She left me once again for the guy she left me for before and will not let me see my son. I am going to spend another Christmas without my son.
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Sunday, December 23, 2012

I wish, more than anything, that I could see my son for Christmas. Even if it is just from a distance. I miss my boy so much... I love you Dallas, I am so sorry I am not with you right now..

Friday, December 21, 2012

It is amazing how things change over the years. I remember being a kid and being so excited at the beginning of November because it was almost time for Christmas. That was all that mattered to me. The presents, food, seeing family that I had not seen much that year, Christmas was the greatest day to me back then. I am only 26 now and I am not looking forward to another Christmas. This will be the second since my father past and my third without my son -who i have never spent a single Christmas with-, no job, almost homeless, and really wishing today would have been the end of the world.
  I know I am not the only one who feels like that over the holidays, for a lot of people out there this is one of the worst parts of the year and that is sad, because I know there are people out there that could fix this. It really wouldn't take very much to change how some of these people fell either. For me it would be a phone call from any person in my family inviting me to spend Christmas with them, anyone at all, just because they know I am going through a tough time and they don't want me to be alone.
  If there is someone you know that needs someone this Christmas please give them a call, even if you know that couldn't make, do it anyway. Make that person feel like they are wanted somewhere. I would do anything to have that feeling right now. ANYTHING. But I know it is not going to happen for me. Dont leave someone hanging this year, they need you.